played karmun for selections today, she was sick, so i dint really feel good about winning.maybe if we played another day, the results would have been different. at some point i did feel it was unfair, and wondered why i never asked not to play today. my toenail broke today too, first time. im afraid of pain, so i jus plastered it and continued the second set. tmr against tjc, hope i will do well.
i dont know why, but it seems to be more than just another sport, another CCA to me. sometimes i feel it means something more.
i woke up realising i have lost what i used to have. i dreamt about four of us. and i dint want to wake up, but the alarm still woke me up, and the dream, i could never return too. the morning was especially cold, as i listened to songs on the mrt, i couldnt help but.....
i really want to blame everything on you, how could you just break me so easily? but its also me. i didnt manage to capture your heart, and just let it slip away.. i gave in too much because i felt too much for you. but maybe that is not what you want.
i couldnt run fast enough, and you couldnt slow down for me. my fitness is at absolute zero, while youre training hard everyday.
i know as im thinking of you, im no longer part of your thoughts.
it would really help if i could just keep my mind on something else everyday on the mrt. it is hard. today as i walked out of school, i was wondering if i would feel better; happier, if i had someone to talk to as i went home, someone to call to tell them i have won, someone to whine to about the small little broken nail,
that someone, i was thinking of you. even though your number was typed into my phone for so many times, i never once pressed the call button.
posted by GRACECHIA @ 10:42 PM
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